I’m not even going to lie… I’m not okay right now. ⠀
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I gave my heart to a man who only saw it as a joke.⠀
My love & affection was just another trophy in the case, along with a long line of other women’s who were never good enough either,
because he was never even enough for himself.⠀
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I knew it was too good to be true the first night we met,⠀
but I did it anyway.⠀
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I fell anyways.⠀
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Why?⠀
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Because love gives you purpose, it gives your heart meaning and mission… Even if it is unrequited. ⠀
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And I still held on to it for as long as I could… long after he “ghosted” me, too. Dropping off the face of the earth is no way for ANY person to behave when it comes to a matter of the heart… but apparently that’s acceptable in this society.⠀
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My heart held on long after my head knew better. Not because I was oblivious, but because the fantasy gave me life while the reality was soul-crushing.⠀
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I’m still reeling from the loss, but pretending I could have just told my heart “no” is not where I went wrong.⠀
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Where I went wrong was looking for a love who spent his time looking for the love for himself in someone else.⠀
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Ladies and gents… this may be my personal opinion, but your time is better spent on the learning and improving of yourself rather than “looking” for love. The right love will find YOU, but only after you found yourself.⠀
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I usually find comfort by running away and exploring, so I’ll have to find another way to do that in my mind, but that’s the truth of it all. ⠀
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I’m absolutely heartbroken and just doing the best I can right now. ⠀
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Thank you for listening to me. ⠀
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